Warning: Sappy post ahead 🙂
I always knew I wanted to be a mom. I had many other dreams as well but that one was always a no brainer.
I was over-the-moon with joy when we found out we were expecting our first baby. I had read so many articles in the months before about pregnancy I’m pretty sure I should have been a pro. Wrong. So wrong.
From a threatened miscarriage, to hyperemesis, to wacky test results that needed further investigation, I felt like anything that could have gone wrong did. I won’t lie, it was a very difficult time for me.
And then, she was born. Hannah Faith, 8lbs 1oz of pure baby bliss on July 7th at 7:54pm. The moment I held her in my arms everything I went through during the pregnancy was absolutely, without a doubt worth it. There are no words to explain the feeling you get when your baby is laid in your arms for the first time. Everything feels right in the world. It is magic.
That little baby bliss turns 3 tomorrow.
Some days I feel the time has slipped right through my fingers. The older she gets the less cuddles she wants and the more I wish I could rock that sweet baby one more time. On the other hand, I see the little girl she is becoming and I know that has taken time.
She is sweet and spunky. Kind and stubborn. Hilarious and clumsy. Mommy’s girl and independent. Smart and quirky. Generous and outgoing. Friendly and helpful. She’s an awesome big sister. She’s my Hannie Banannie (but she would say no, she’s Hannah Haston).
No, I don’t live in a fairy tale world. We have bad days, we have meltdowns, we have tantrums. But we have very amazing days, and in my mind those days outweigh all the bad.
In all honesty, I’m lucky to be this girl’s mom. She is a world changer in the making. She is so sweet and friendly to everyone she meets. She doesn’t have to do anything but walk into a room and people are drawn to her, they want her to like them. God has placed special things into her personality that I can only imagine how they will be used in the future. I am excited to see what this life holds for her and what she does with it.
This next year is going to be exciting! I know she will have so many firsts, learn crazy amounts of information, and continue to develop that little personality of hers.
Maybe one day she will stumble across these words, so just in case Happy Birthday my sweet Hannah baby. I love you more than I could ever tell you. God made you special baby girl.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,a God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.