You know those annoying kids that always ask, “Why?” You give them an answer, they ask why, you give another answer and you get another why. That was me. And still is to a certain point. I have learned through the years to keep my 1 million why’s to myself.
But, I still think about a lot of things and have many deep, sometimes overwhelming questions. There is so much that I want to know about God, but don’t understand. For a while my questions kept me from fully believing. I let my need for answers outweigh my faith and relationship with Christ.
I finally came up with this idea that takes away a little of the anxiety about my unanswered questions. You may think I’m being funny but I believe my theory, I have to so that my faith can grow. I believe that when I get to heaven, after I’m done with my first turn of thanking and praising Jesus and God, that I will be taken to a big movie theater type room where I will watch everything from the beginning of time until the day I died. Answers to all the questions I had but never got answers for, the reasons why things happened the way they did, how God was able to do the things he did. All those questions that kept me up at night.
You might have several reasons why God wouldn’t do that, and that’s ok. But like I said, that’s what helps me deal with my heavy questions that can’t be answered on Earth.
There are still things that trip me up and make me think really hard.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8
That’s one of those verses that make my mind spin.
I am not the same as I was yesterday. I’m older, learned something new, something yesterday changed me in some way. This happens every day. It happens for everyone. There is no one on Earth that is the same as they were yesterday. It’s not possible.
This idea is so hard for me to understand. God doesn’t change. He is not affected by the happenings of this world. He doesn’t love us any more or any less regardless of what we do. We can’t make him go away, we can’t change him. That is a relief in some ways, but in other ways it feels a little cold.
But, if God was able to be affected by the decisions of humans he wouldn’t be able to survive. He would be crushed with sadness, anger, resentment, frustration. I do think God feels these emotions towards his creation but he knows the outcome. He knew how it would end before he created it. Does he always like it? No, I couldn’t imagine that he does. He has the benefit of not needing to ask all these questions that consume us.
I think by not giving us the answers or the understanding of the complexities of this world he is saving us from a lot of heartache and maybe even more questions. He is protecting us.
When I can step away from the questions I have about how God and Jesus can always have been and will forever be the same and unchanged, I can see and appreciate the beauty of our creator. I can appreciate that he gave me the ability to ask the questions that are hard but even more the ability to accept that I will not have answers in this life. What an amazing, mysterious, omnipotent God we serve! Thank God, he is the same yesterday, today and forever!